Skype

Today i got skype and its really good for a webcam chat with SJ and we can actully do video calls if we want now
I really really love her and we meant to be together
Were really getting better now were going really good and i cant wait for our future together
I cant wait to see her to be able to cuddle up and kiss her
I start my exams monday and im feeling quietly confident

I love you babe

Failure

Ive done it again as useal we go well and then i mess up somtimes i just wish my sister had left me in that fire it would make everyones lives so much easier
I love her but she doesnt deserve this and i dont deserver her im just a dick and a failure 
I just wish i could do somthing right for once with my track record of failures i see me failing my exams

thats all :/

Pain

I really just cant stop all this pain erupting over my body i keep passing out
I just wish i was with SJ in her arms it would make everything so much easier and mangeable
I really love her and i cant wait to be with her
Were really good again and im just hoping i dont screw it up again
I really cant wait to get back to my sport but im in know state right now
And i might have brain damage but the doctors said it will be obvs in the next week so fun fun GCSES :/
I start next monday with my English Language part 1 and hour forty minutes of english

I love you babe
xxxxxxxxxxxx