typical me

Great just when everything goes right i go and muck it up by being a stupid idiotic depressive arsehole
I just dont know why i even bother i dont know why SJ wants me i put her through hell
and she deserves so much better then me

I dont know how im even getting through my exam i just feeel like my life is tumbleing around me but i just feel bad about SJ because shes proberly feeling really bad now but she keeps it all in so as not to upset others and i know im an idiot for hurting her yet again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAol6Ej07X4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUH86YUpKYU

Skype

Today i got skype and its really good for a webcam chat with SJ and we can actully do video calls if we want now
I really really love her and we meant to be together
Were really getting better now were going really good and i cant wait for our future together
I cant wait to see her to be able to cuddle up and kiss her
I start my exams monday and im feeling quietly confident

I love you babe

Failure

Ive done it again as useal we go well and then i mess up somtimes i just wish my sister had left me in that fire it would make everyones lives so much easier
I love her but she doesnt deserve this and i dont deserver her im just a dick and a failure 
I just wish i could do somthing right for once with my track record of failures i see me failing my exams

thats all :/

reasurrence

My girlfriend is so so perfect and i really really can think of nothing better then spending the rest of my life with her. I really really love her and i just hope i can reasure her that she wont lose me and has no reason to be jealous, But it is reasonable for her to have doubts as i live so far away so i understand.

My health is on the up and im feeling confident about my exams now. I really cant wait to see SJ it will be amazing and perfect to spend time with her again and to be able to hug and kiss her

short post because im really tired

I love you my perfect princess
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