typical me

Great just when everything goes right i go and muck it up by being a stupid idiotic depressive arsehole
I just dont know why i even bother i dont know why SJ wants me i put her through hell
and she deserves so much better then me

I dont know how im even getting through my exam i just feeel like my life is tumbleing around me but i just feel bad about SJ because shes proberly feeling really bad now but she keeps it all in so as not to upset others and i know im an idiot for hurting her yet again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAol6Ej07X4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUH86YUpKYU

reasurrence

My girlfriend is so so perfect and i really really can think of nothing better then spending the rest of my life with her. I really really love her and i just hope i can reasure her that she wont lose me and has no reason to be jealous, But it is reasonable for her to have doubts as i live so far away so i understand.

My health is on the up and im feeling confident about my exams now. I really cant wait to see SJ it will be amazing and perfect to spend time with her again and to be able to hug and kiss her

short post because im really tired

I love you my perfect princess
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Idiot

Just as we start going good again i make another mistake
I keep letting Elliot cause problems between us hes coming between us
And all the problems over the past few days have been my fault
Ive messed up and i know it i just dont know how to stop crying now
All i do in life is cause the people closest to me to leave me
I cant lose another importent person from my life
But i feel as if i will expecially if i carry on like this
I need to treat her better
Im sorry SJ

I Love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxx