Failure

Ive done it again as useal we go well and then i mess up somtimes i just wish my sister had left me in that fire it would make everyones lives so much easier
I love her but she doesnt deserve this and i dont deserver her im just a dick and a failure 
I just wish i could do somthing right for once with my track record of failures i see me failing my exams

thats all :/

Idiot

Just as we start going good again i make another mistake
I keep letting Elliot cause problems between us hes coming between us
And all the problems over the past few days have been my fault
Ive messed up and i know it i just dont know how to stop crying now
All i do in life is cause the people closest to me to leave me
I cant lose another importent person from my life
But i feel as if i will expecially if i carry on like this
I need to treat her better
Im sorry SJ

I Love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxx